I've been having conversations with various friends where I wasn't allowed to state my whole opinion due to bias opinions and an unwillingness to listen. I'm not saying that I am bias free, but I feel as though I let other people say what they believe. I've had many instances where I've been discriminated against for my beliefs and I swore I would never do the same. I might disagree, but I believe in the freedom of speech.
Anyway, I was talking to Anthony (one of the Mr. Wrongs) and he has an extremely low opinion of the human race. He said that only 30% of the working age (16-65) population in the United States could take care of themselves. That's rich considering he's 24 and living with his parents. Yet, he classifies himself in the 30%. I asked him what gave him the right to make that sort of claim. His reply was he met lots of people while traveling. I beg to differ. He met lots of people at bars and clubs which does not give a decent representation. I even asked where he's been. The only places he could list where Utah, New York, Connecticut, and the surrounding areas.
It annoyed me tremendously. He thought himself to be better and he said so! I might be proud of the knowledge that I've gained, but I'm not going to say I'm smarter than 70% of the population. Everybody has different experiences that they learn from. They all have something to contribute and are just as capable of taking care of themselves. Various people might be stronger in certain areas, but I feel that has to do with circumstance and the willingness to work. (I can't stand people who give up or don't pursue what they want. Not having motivation is incomprehensible to me.) What he was proposing sounded like we were suppose to get rid of the 70%.
Another award-winning theory given by Anthony is that if somebody treats him poorly he wont be friends with them anymore. Give me a break. I'm a HUGE believer in I'll give you as many chances as you need or are willing to take. To me a sincere apology is all that is necessary. It takes way too much energy to hold a grudge. That, and I can't do it. I've tried. He's the most bitter person I have ever met. Why let yourself be hindered by self pity?
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
A Penny For My Thoughts
If you hadn't noticed by know my mind works similarly to lists. I exhaust a subject than move on. I feel like it takes too long to explain how these thoughts interact as a whole or how one thought leaps to another. I once heard a wise comedian compare spaghetti to a girl's mind and a waffle to a boy's mind. One thought from a girl leads to a completely different thought much like the ends of spaghetti. If a boy thinks something it stays in that general square much like syrup cupped in a waffle. I thought it was genius personally...Anyway, my thoughts in no particular order.
1.) Is it true that life is wasted on the youth? I realize I have become in the habit of waiting for a particular event to be happy. I have the greatest ability to procrastinate. But when I do days pass by, then weeks, then months. If I did everything today that I'm going to do tomorrow I think I would be getting somewhere a lot quicker. Why not enjoy the moment and work towards something than spending all that time and effort worrying abt it? That might be common sense, but it didn't really sink in till recently.
2.) That thought led to this next one. I make decisions similarly to the scientific method. It seems as if I have to make my own mistakes and gather my own data in order to make a decision. This doesn't mean I try drugs or do stupid stunts by any stretch of the imagination. As long as it's proven to me that certain things don't work or are harmful, I won't try them.
3.) I quite literally copied and pasted the list of majors that my university offers onto a Word document and started deleting the ones that didn't interest me. I was talking to a friend and expressing my fear of not being smart enough for some possibilities. Her response was just what I needed to hear. I KNOW that I'm smart enough. All I need is passion and to work hard enough. Cliche, but true. My first priority while going through my freshman year was not to my studies, but to my fun-loving self. Upon making this realization, I then lost my fear of every major which has it's own pros and cons. I debated for a half an hour if I wanted to become a civil engineer. Previously, I would have deleted it in less than fifteen seconds. It's amazing how much information is at my finger tips! The problem is I love learning, I honestly do. What I need to decide is what I want to study in depth and what to take up as a hobby. Sure, I would be interested in studying anthropology, but would I want to study that my whole life? Maybe not. So, what that leads me to is Art History, English, Communications, Political Science (followed by Law School), Biz (Marketing/Advertising), or Bio (followed by Med School). Obviously, I have some narrowing down to do yet. I think I still have 83 choices on my list of majors. Not kidding.
4.) I want to do a study abroad in England, but financially it would be difficult to make a reality. I love traveling and understanding different cultures and how people live. It takes me out of my every day life and makes me realize I'm not the center of the universe. There is a whole world out there! The thought conveys pointlessness in every day occurrences. Have you ever noticed how independence is so stressed in this country? I think it speeds the way into adulthood for better or for worse.
5.) My grandpa is close to dying and I already lost one set of grandparents. This grandpa fought in WWII and was right there invading Germany. But now he sits in his chair unable to hear or stand or even walk to the bathroom without significant struggle. My mom has taken him to see the doctor five different times until they figured out why he was sick and in so much pain. Now they told my grandma to pick up the medicine he needs four days from now after using certain machinery for six weeks. My dad used it once for only five days after he had surgery and only could stand the pain for five days. He yanked it out himself.
How is it that a man that sacrificed his life for his country now has nobody to care for him except his wife of 65 years and his son and daughter-in-law/posterity? Why, may I ask, is it that it took so long to figure out what was wrong with him? Why is it that when upon realizing the situation the medicine can't be gotten sooner? Have doctors been neglecting their duty? Or is their duty to their patients changed? Have we been getting less assistance than the cost of the doctor's visit was worth? Or are their too many sick and not enough doctor's? Who is to defend the rights of the elderly? Who is there to assist the elderly with no family? Is it the state's responsibility? Or should the elderly be left to their own devices? What abt the handicapped? We have the freedom of speech, but what happens when individuals are unable to speak for themselves and call attention to their situation? Some questions I can answer, but other's I will have to keep on thinking abt. It is sad to think that when a person has spent years in service and been willing to sacrifice their lives in order to protect other's unalienable rights they are so treated and forgotten. I'm not saying by any stretch of the imagination that my grandpa should be given anything more than any other soldier or person that has dedicated their lives to helping others. I think more consideration should be available.
6.) Maybe I'll work at a Nursing Home.
1.) Is it true that life is wasted on the youth? I realize I have become in the habit of waiting for a particular event to be happy. I have the greatest ability to procrastinate. But when I do days pass by, then weeks, then months. If I did everything today that I'm going to do tomorrow I think I would be getting somewhere a lot quicker. Why not enjoy the moment and work towards something than spending all that time and effort worrying abt it? That might be common sense, but it didn't really sink in till recently.
2.) That thought led to this next one. I make decisions similarly to the scientific method. It seems as if I have to make my own mistakes and gather my own data in order to make a decision. This doesn't mean I try drugs or do stupid stunts by any stretch of the imagination. As long as it's proven to me that certain things don't work or are harmful, I won't try them.
3.) I quite literally copied and pasted the list of majors that my university offers onto a Word document and started deleting the ones that didn't interest me. I was talking to a friend and expressing my fear of not being smart enough for some possibilities. Her response was just what I needed to hear. I KNOW that I'm smart enough. All I need is passion and to work hard enough. Cliche, but true. My first priority while going through my freshman year was not to my studies, but to my fun-loving self. Upon making this realization, I then lost my fear of every major which has it's own pros and cons. I debated for a half an hour if I wanted to become a civil engineer. Previously, I would have deleted it in less than fifteen seconds. It's amazing how much information is at my finger tips! The problem is I love learning, I honestly do. What I need to decide is what I want to study in depth and what to take up as a hobby. Sure, I would be interested in studying anthropology, but would I want to study that my whole life? Maybe not. So, what that leads me to is Art History, English, Communications, Political Science (followed by Law School), Biz (Marketing/Advertising), or Bio (followed by Med School). Obviously, I have some narrowing down to do yet. I think I still have 83 choices on my list of majors. Not kidding.
4.) I want to do a study abroad in England, but financially it would be difficult to make a reality. I love traveling and understanding different cultures and how people live. It takes me out of my every day life and makes me realize I'm not the center of the universe. There is a whole world out there! The thought conveys pointlessness in every day occurrences. Have you ever noticed how independence is so stressed in this country? I think it speeds the way into adulthood for better or for worse.
5.) My grandpa is close to dying and I already lost one set of grandparents. This grandpa fought in WWII and was right there invading Germany. But now he sits in his chair unable to hear or stand or even walk to the bathroom without significant struggle. My mom has taken him to see the doctor five different times until they figured out why he was sick and in so much pain. Now they told my grandma to pick up the medicine he needs four days from now after using certain machinery for six weeks. My dad used it once for only five days after he had surgery and only could stand the pain for five days. He yanked it out himself.
How is it that a man that sacrificed his life for his country now has nobody to care for him except his wife of 65 years and his son and daughter-in-law/posterity? Why, may I ask, is it that it took so long to figure out what was wrong with him? Why is it that when upon realizing the situation the medicine can't be gotten sooner? Have doctors been neglecting their duty? Or is their duty to their patients changed? Have we been getting less assistance than the cost of the doctor's visit was worth? Or are their too many sick and not enough doctor's? Who is to defend the rights of the elderly? Who is there to assist the elderly with no family? Is it the state's responsibility? Or should the elderly be left to their own devices? What abt the handicapped? We have the freedom of speech, but what happens when individuals are unable to speak for themselves and call attention to their situation? Some questions I can answer, but other's I will have to keep on thinking abt. It is sad to think that when a person has spent years in service and been willing to sacrifice their lives in order to protect other's unalienable rights they are so treated and forgotten. I'm not saying by any stretch of the imagination that my grandpa should be given anything more than any other soldier or person that has dedicated their lives to helping others. I think more consideration should be available.
6.) Maybe I'll work at a Nursing Home.
Sunday, July 12, 2009
Meet the Mr. Wrong's
I'm almost disgusted to say how much time boys take up! In all reality, I am only here in MN for two more months. Then, I will be back at BYU to start fall semester. What this means is, there is not point in having a boyfriend. This summer is only meant to be a break from responsibility (other than making money) and overwhelming stress. Point blank: I'm looking to have a fun time only. Nothing more, nothing less. What I decided is boys my age don't understand the concept of being friends. My theory is that to a guy making a friend with a girl is a pointless waste of time and energy unless their efforts reap some sort of benefit. Examples can include a)emotional support b)someone to hang out with when other friends are busy c)relationships and/or (but not all-inclusive) d)physicality. What it comes down to is guys will only be your friend if they've known you since childhood, you have family ties, or your the girlfriend's best friend. You might think I'm cynical. If so you might be right, but I actually find the whole situation somewhat humorous. Life is funny. I tend to have an very dry sense of humor.
Before, I jump into an explanation of the title I wanted to add that I went to a wedding reception recently. I was sitting down talking to a few adults when the bride announced that she was going to throw the bouquet. I kid you not: I had AT LEAST seven people turn to me in little than thirty seconds to urging me to go catch it. I wanted to say, "If you knew the guys I know, you wouldn't want me to catch that bouquet!"
Without any further adieu, meet the Mr. Wrong's in my life:
Candidate #1: Jamie
Pros: Almost graduated with only a few thousand in debt (impressive), majoring in English with a minor in History which are the EXACT subjects I love, can talk to him and tell him anything, funny
Cons: twenty five, bald and with a beard (there does have to be some attraction physically), loves sports a little too much for me, can have unpleasant humor, jealous
Activities: I got tricked into a double date and during this night we watched a movie. Jamie nonchalantly sat in the love seat while there was no other spot open (there wasn't even enough space to sit on the floor). I could see his hand inching towards mine that I then moved in order to constantly keep them busy through texting a friend. When he realized those efforts were in vain he put is arm up across the back of the chair and kept looking at me! I knew if I looked at him he would attempt to kiss me. When I didn't give him the slightest glance he began moving his arm closer. What I don't think he realized was the love seat was leather and I could hear it creeping up on me. I was beyond frantic! My friend who I was texting made a call and got me out of that sticky situation.
Later, I started to text one of his friends (Ron, who is another candidate) who I got to know. Jamie was texting him to and trying to make himself sound good through Ron. It seemed as if he was "staking out his territory" once again. I WAS LIVID. No guy dictates who I'm friends with!
Moving on to Candidate #2: Luke
Pros: ATTRACTIVE, funny, sweet, fun to be around, does these random acts of service for me, photographer, going to BYUI in the fall (closer)
Cons: LIAR, and stringing me along, known for making out with a girl two weeks before her marriage.
Activities: This relationship is messed up and needs more explaining. I have different circle of friends. One is Luke, Lucy, Jamie, and myself. Lucy happens to be married, but is going through a divorce that will be finalized the end of Aug. Jamie was interested in me and told Luke to back off. Luke turned affections to Lucy, but religion stops them both from dating publicly. So this makes a perfect situation in which Jamie can be a player. It took me awhile to realize that he was using me for a back up plan. He's pretty good at what he does and it took me awhile to fit the puzzle pieces together.
Candidate #3: Adrian
Pros: he's better than me/just a really good guy, LDS and believes in it, a cute shy, gives me my space when needed, not afraid to have a good time, really humble (if that makes sense), down to earth, can talk, going to BYU in the fall, and has a car (they're useful!)
Cons: He doesn't make me laugh as much, and his mom. This needs explaining too. Adrian is one out of four boys, being the second oldest. The third was actually my first kiss at age 15, and we still are really good friends (he's on a mission for two years) and I'm really good friends with the entire family. However, the mom wouldn't like it very much if we started dating. She's kind of protective of her boys.
Activities: We went cliff jumping with a group of people, but to get to this place we spent a total of three hours in the car together. We talked abt everything. I also went to a party that he was throwing. Awkwardly, another candidate (Anthony) invited himself along. SO, I had a guy invite me and I brought another guy...Luckily (if you can call it that), their old acquaintances, if not old friends. We do have a couple dates set up this week!
Next, Candidate #4: Anthony
Pros: tall, can make me laugh, always out looking for an adventure, can tell great stories, fun, is always there when you need him
Cons: smokes (but is trying to quit), 24, more difficult to talk to, sometimes needy and cynical, just got out of a relationship and wanting to have a rebound.
Activities: Bonfire/Perkins adventure! It was awesome and a whole lot of fun until I got these crazy cramps. They hurt so bad that I thought I was going to vomit all over the place. He drove me back home in my car while (ironically) one of my ex's drove his car. Then he kind of invited himself to Adrian's party, but I was really surprised how he handled the situation. He down played it like no other! And then we all went to the beach to swim even though the sun was completely gone. They had this amazing floating dock that was fun to tip people off of. We actually have a date this week too.
Last, and probably least, Candidate #5: Damion
Pros: attractive, WITTY, has a good stable job, great smile, easy to talk to, hilarious, loyal
Cons: I think he's a little bit shorter than me...and he's pretty close friends to the first candidate, Jamie. Therefore, I doesn't want to offend his friend by dating me.
Activities: He took me out shooting for my first time ever! We also went hiking and he took me to a beautiful waterfall. Unfortunately, we didn't have our swim suits! But we waded in the water and talked for awhile. He actually lives a good distance away and works a lot, so I don't know if anything will really happen there. But, we still manage to see each other once a week at least. (Funny story: Jamie told me that this guy brought his girl friend to a BBQ that I couldn't make it to. That confused me greatly and I looked at his Facebook page to see that he has himself down as single. I asked him abt it, and technically Jamie didn't lie. The girl was just that. A girl who happened to be a friend. The girl admitted it herself later.)
And THAT is the end of all the candidates for now. Interestingly enough, they all happen to be LDS technically, since they were all baptised. Obviously, they all believe in their faith to different degrees and their own personal struggles/strengths.
The funny thing is I don't consider myself to be flirtatious. I blog for goodness sake! What is even more humorous is that ALL these guys are going to be taking a road trip that my church is setting up. ALL of us are going to be together including Lucy and some various others. Stay tuned...
Before, I jump into an explanation of the title I wanted to add that I went to a wedding reception recently. I was sitting down talking to a few adults when the bride announced that she was going to throw the bouquet. I kid you not: I had AT LEAST seven people turn to me in little than thirty seconds to urging me to go catch it. I wanted to say, "If you knew the guys I know, you wouldn't want me to catch that bouquet!"
Without any further adieu, meet the Mr. Wrong's in my life:
Candidate #1: Jamie
Pros: Almost graduated with only a few thousand in debt (impressive), majoring in English with a minor in History which are the EXACT subjects I love, can talk to him and tell him anything, funny
Cons: twenty five, bald and with a beard (there does have to be some attraction physically), loves sports a little too much for me, can have unpleasant humor, jealous
Activities: I got tricked into a double date and during this night we watched a movie. Jamie nonchalantly sat in the love seat while there was no other spot open (there wasn't even enough space to sit on the floor). I could see his hand inching towards mine that I then moved in order to constantly keep them busy through texting a friend. When he realized those efforts were in vain he put is arm up across the back of the chair and kept looking at me! I knew if I looked at him he would attempt to kiss me. When I didn't give him the slightest glance he began moving his arm closer. What I don't think he realized was the love seat was leather and I could hear it creeping up on me. I was beyond frantic! My friend who I was texting made a call and got me out of that sticky situation.
Later, I started to text one of his friends (Ron, who is another candidate) who I got to know. Jamie was texting him to and trying to make himself sound good through Ron. It seemed as if he was "staking out his territory" once again. I WAS LIVID. No guy dictates who I'm friends with!
Moving on to Candidate #2: Luke
Pros: ATTRACTIVE, funny, sweet, fun to be around, does these random acts of service for me, photographer, going to BYUI in the fall (closer)
Cons: LIAR, and stringing me along, known for making out with a girl two weeks before her marriage.
Activities: This relationship is messed up and needs more explaining. I have different circle of friends. One is Luke, Lucy, Jamie, and myself. Lucy happens to be married, but is going through a divorce that will be finalized the end of Aug. Jamie was interested in me and told Luke to back off. Luke turned affections to Lucy, but religion stops them both from dating publicly. So this makes a perfect situation in which Jamie can be a player. It took me awhile to realize that he was using me for a back up plan. He's pretty good at what he does and it took me awhile to fit the puzzle pieces together.
Candidate #3: Adrian
Pros: he's better than me/just a really good guy, LDS and believes in it, a cute shy, gives me my space when needed, not afraid to have a good time, really humble (if that makes sense), down to earth, can talk, going to BYU in the fall, and has a car (they're useful!)
Cons: He doesn't make me laugh as much, and his mom. This needs explaining too. Adrian is one out of four boys, being the second oldest. The third was actually my first kiss at age 15, and we still are really good friends (he's on a mission for two years) and I'm really good friends with the entire family. However, the mom wouldn't like it very much if we started dating. She's kind of protective of her boys.
Activities: We went cliff jumping with a group of people, but to get to this place we spent a total of three hours in the car together. We talked abt everything. I also went to a party that he was throwing. Awkwardly, another candidate (Anthony) invited himself along. SO, I had a guy invite me and I brought another guy...Luckily (if you can call it that), their old acquaintances, if not old friends. We do have a couple dates set up this week!
Next, Candidate #4: Anthony
Pros: tall, can make me laugh, always out looking for an adventure, can tell great stories, fun, is always there when you need him
Cons: smokes (but is trying to quit), 24, more difficult to talk to, sometimes needy and cynical, just got out of a relationship and wanting to have a rebound.
Activities: Bonfire/Perkins adventure! It was awesome and a whole lot of fun until I got these crazy cramps. They hurt so bad that I thought I was going to vomit all over the place. He drove me back home in my car while (ironically) one of my ex's drove his car. Then he kind of invited himself to Adrian's party, but I was really surprised how he handled the situation. He down played it like no other! And then we all went to the beach to swim even though the sun was completely gone. They had this amazing floating dock that was fun to tip people off of. We actually have a date this week too.
Last, and probably least, Candidate #5: Damion
Pros: attractive, WITTY, has a good stable job, great smile, easy to talk to, hilarious, loyal
Cons: I think he's a little bit shorter than me...and he's pretty close friends to the first candidate, Jamie. Therefore, I doesn't want to offend his friend by dating me.
Activities: He took me out shooting for my first time ever! We also went hiking and he took me to a beautiful waterfall. Unfortunately, we didn't have our swim suits! But we waded in the water and talked for awhile. He actually lives a good distance away and works a lot, so I don't know if anything will really happen there. But, we still manage to see each other once a week at least. (Funny story: Jamie told me that this guy brought his girl friend to a BBQ that I couldn't make it to. That confused me greatly and I looked at his Facebook page to see that he has himself down as single. I asked him abt it, and technically Jamie didn't lie. The girl was just that. A girl who happened to be a friend. The girl admitted it herself later.)
And THAT is the end of all the candidates for now. Interestingly enough, they all happen to be LDS technically, since they were all baptised. Obviously, they all believe in their faith to different degrees and their own personal struggles/strengths.
The funny thing is I don't consider myself to be flirtatious. I blog for goodness sake! What is even more humorous is that ALL these guys are going to be taking a road trip that my church is setting up. ALL of us are going to be together including Lucy and some various others. Stay tuned...
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